If I can be honest here, and I sure hope that I can since it's my blog, the last couple weeks have been probably the most challenging of my mothering "career." While the boys are still the most sweet and precious things in the world to me, they have been testing me so much. Charlie seems to think defiance is always an option, and he does it with a manipulative smile. And Nate is a precious Momma's boy, which is sweet, but makes it a little difficult to cook dinner (or to do anything else for that matter) when he is crying at my legs for me to hold him. Add on top of that Dave working and traveling a lot, and I am fried. There are so many times where I feel like if I would only do something different, everything would be better... I'm not doing a good enough job, and that's why the boys are acting out... But so often I don't have it in me to teach them and set boundaries, instead I react out of frustration and turn on the TV for them to watch. I find myself questioning my strength to do this.
Today I actually managed to get a little quiet time, and came across these precious words:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Cor. 12:9)
So here I am, boasting of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. It is my prayer that where I feel weak in my mothering skills, Jesus' power will be made perfect.
2 comments:
You are not alone. Every mother I know struggles with the same issues. My patience gets fried way too easily and I find once that happens, I lose it. And everyone suffers.
Matthew is the same as Nathan- always wanting to be held and shown everything. I recently learned he just wants to see all the action. I let him stand on a chair to watch. It's not the perfect solution, but it's helped with the whining and grabbing at the pant legs (one morning he pulled my pajamas down he was pulling so hard!)
Big hugs. Call if you need a shoulder to cry on...
I love that! And you know I need it to. Plus I only have one and feel like that, you have two. So I think you are great! (-:
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